|L for Love, but seriously, Kira for the fucking win.|
Everyone has that one person that completely changes their lives forever. She meant the world to me. Christina was sweet, but trite naive, she wasn't for me. No one quite says it like Trophy Scars though :). We met because I needed a reed for my Clarinet. She was new so I thought I could pressure her into giving me one. She totally caved. I told her my name was Jesus, but at this point I didn't really like her. Apparently she wrote about me in a diary of hers, kind of like I'm doing now, but I thought it was kind of sweet. She actually let me read it, and asked me to write a page in it. I never did, but I guess this is me making up for that. I'm not good at writing meaningful things, so I kind of just let it go.
We sat next to each other in football games, and it totally blew when I saw her give some guy a hug and found out it was her boyfriend. I kind of felt like an ass, but he seemed like a douchebag so I kept talking to her and stuff. She was a tease, she'd say stuff like "Wanna be my boyfriend?" just to see my face light up. She knew I was totally digging her.
At our Homecomming, she showed up with her doucebag boyfriend, and she wanted me to dance with her, but she said I had to ask him. Fuck that, but I did it anyways. Of course he said no, but only because he's a pussy, he knew he had lost her when he looked at her eager face. So we got our one dance, and I'm not even sure how it happened but we ended up bumping heads, and we just sort of stood there with our heads resting on each others. As she put it she "Totally wanted to suck my face off."
So she broke up with her boyfriend at a football game and came crying to me, and we dated for a while. I don't know why, but I was completely crazy, still am, about this girl. I was completely obsessed, I don't know what it was about her, she was just perfect. I loved everything about her, we'd be complete assholes to each other just for fun, and it was amazing, I could be my natural douchey self to a girl and she enjoyed it.
I just hate that I fell so in love with this girl, I have to live my life, and she's just a distraction. We'd have periods of time when we'd just stop talking, then we'd be all "I missed you" and it'd just go in a cycle. I had to get out, so I told her I never wanted to see her again. Luckily, she's moving this summer, so I'll never have to see her again. My whole year pretty much revolved around her, and I'll always associate my Junior year in High School with this one girl.
I made her promise that we'd never talk, we even de-friended each other on facebook (whoa) so you know it's for real :P. I'm kind of glad she's leaving, I can finally get back to worrying just about me. I know it'll just take some time, but I'll get over this girl. I care so much for this girl, and it sucks to have to do this, but I know it's the right thing. I just wasn't meant to be. I told you I wouldn't write this, but I know you're reading it right now and you promised you'd leave for good. So we're even. Douchebag. I love you.